Slow ride. Take it easy.

First of all, Japanese are... odd.
I suggest you watch the video in that link, it is pretty bizarre to say the least.

The best time to be the first is the last

'We are not questioning god,
just those who choose to carry on his Cross.'



I must say, lately I have started listening to a lot of smooth music... which is odd, because I am not content anymore.

I've been thinking... I need a team.
A real team.
Not one that is 2 people and an empty spot.
Not one that has 2 people who I don't feel in a team with.
Not a team I don't get.
I wish it were possible.
Even plausible would do.
But a real team?
Fiction or fantasy?

Is it a lost cause?
Or is there a way?
I know I can't keep burning the candle at both ends
but sure as hell I am going to give it a go.
I am not a fan of gameplans.
I like winging it.
Yet I love it when a plan comes together.
And I hate surprises.
This is why I have few expectations
None of them great.

I don't like to be proven wrong.
I like to know what is going to happen.
I like to know the truth.
But information blocks are surrounding me,
Binding me to oblivion.
And in the end I have to ask...
Who am I and who are the others?
What is the point?

The only solution is to keep pushing through
Push, push, push
And hope to get right with you.
The only solution
Is cruise mode.

And yes, Han shot first.

Bullet in the brainpan, squish

I can help shake the feeling that we are of different worlds.

What do I want from life? How to get it? I actually cannot say for sure.
I know I want to thrive, I want to reach something.
I want to make a future.
But what will it be like?

'The future is in your hands, so make it a good one!' -Back to the Future Part III

Falling asleep is hard, waking up is even harder.
I wish things just went the way they should, no surprises, no reroutes.
Just a steady cruise, following it's way to the abyss.
Nothing complex, only simplicity at it's finest.
Just to simply live and not have a care in the world because it all comes together.
But plans never do.
'Even the best laid plansnever survive the battlefield.'

Maybe I should revert to reading 'Cryptonomicon' or 'The Art of War'...
Damn those were great books.
Books to live by.

Live long and Prosper Merimee

In Merimee's 'Carmen', her (Carmen's) main point appears to be
'Give me liberty or give me Jose... I mean death.'
Which brings in a rhyme
'Enesetapp - nõrkus või tugevus
või loogiline tulemus?'
'Suicide - flaw or merit
or logical result?'
I know, it doesn't quite rhyme in English as it came out in Estonian. Blame the translator.

Time is so scarce there is nearly no time to rest. My only shot at it is during the weekend as the only stuff next week are as simple as splinters. Except for the one thing I can't wing: German.
I've tried, it's no good.

And yet I write this blog, as if I had nothing better to do... as a matter of fact I am waiting for someone to teach Biology to and learn through teaching. It has proven to be a viable option and it does work.

The fumes are running out. Rogue Wave helps a lot.

Fate seemed to be playing a series of extraordinarily unamusing jokes. - George Orwell

"Life will go on as it has always gone on — that is, badly."- Benjamin the Donkey from George Orwell's 'Animal Farm'

Now that we've grown up together

They're afraid of what they see
That's the price that we all pay
Our valued destiny comes to nothing
I can't tell you where we're going
I guess there's just no way of knowing

Boys speak in rhythm and girls just lie
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
Tell me how you feel, come out of the dark
Then we can head back home and I'll know where to start

-'Foreign language' by Anberlin

The Orwell theme in this post is because of the new subheading of the blog.

Every change brings problems. What defines us is how we deal with those problems.

This song just goes perfectly with what I feel at the present. Downloadable.

A man cannot do everything, there have to be choices. Choices can be good or bad, they can be compromising or infallible. A choice can hurt or heal someone. We never know what kind of choice we make until we have made it and see the consequences. And then we have an another choice, how to deal with those consequences.

'Actions have consequences. Some people learn the hard way.' -HT

The pace is taking it's toll. I'm running on fumes already.

'Guns and ducktape, when do we go?'

For biology purposes, I recommend music. It's catchy enough to be easy to be memorized.

Anyways, sleep deprivation does not bode well for my neural cortex. I feel like a corpse.

'He attacked everything in life with a mix of extraordinary genius and naive incompetence, and it was often difficult to tell which was which.' -Douglas Adams

You fog things up. You always have.

[via Failbook via GAS]

'Better than making an enemy look disloyal is making him look insane. It takes some doing but if you pull it off, it is more devastating than a bullet.' -BN

Best opinion essay topic I've heard in a long time: 'Should Justin Bieber be executed?'

'Sometimes you dance with the Devil.'

Geek jokes are fun. Especially after I tried convincing  a couple dozens of people to think that all young people are geeks and are turning more stooped because of it.

I know it is theoretically impossible to understand, but this works perfectly to those who do.