"The only difference between me and a mad man is that I am not mad." S.Dali

"What do you want?"
"What am I doing here?"

Apparently keeping up a habit is difficult during busy times. It is difficult to keep your head in the game when it gets rough. The hardships tempt you to succumb to surrender, but you don't. It is not your way. It is not my way.

Every action, every aim should have a meaning. It might not be easily put into words, it could be completely abstract. Most often the meaning is the result of it. The experience gained, the people met, the changes to our inner selves. Sometimes we also get a nice paper saying that we achieved what we've been striving towards, sometimes it is an inner challenge that only gives us a warm feeling inside.

By surrendering, a large portion of the meaning is lost. Sometimes all. If something is worth doing, it is worth doing well. If it's worth doing well, it is not worth giving up upon. By surrendering, we tend to say 'what we did, we did without reason, and we failed because we did not understand the task we undertook, we made a mistake'. It means we did something we should not have. And we wasted valuable resources, often more than just time, to do... nothing. It does not have to be this way, giving up may be the right decision. We are almost always smarter after we have experienced more. Hence, the decision to give up on something today may be wiser than out decision yesterday not to give up. It may.

So if we grow older and wiser by the day, why should we not give up when we feel like the strain put upon us by the task we've chosen is too much, or is becoming too much?

"Why do you do it? Why get up? Why keep fighting?

Do you believe you’re fighting for something? For more than your survival?

Can you tell me what it is? Do you even know?

Is it freedom? Or truth? Perhaps peace?

Could it be for love?

Illusions, Mr. Anderson! Vagaries of perception. The temporary constructs of a feeble human intellect trying deperately to justify an existence that is without meaning or purpose. [...] You must be able to see it, Mr. Anderson. You must know it by now. You can’t win. It’s pointless to keep fighting.

Why, Mr. Anderson? Why? Why do you persist?!"

"Because I choose to."