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It is amazing how no plan really survives the battlefield.
I wish plans worked exactly as the should, not get all twisty on me.

Oh well, have a nice rest of this year. And hope that your next one will be better.
Or in Estonian: "Head uut ja vana!"

Christmas is a time for celebration.

Well, it appears that there is no more school this year. Finally an opportunity to gets some real work done.

I like the Cambridge University's logic that a student studies and learns from lectures, not in them. Not so many classes but tons of independent work.

I do not wish to think anymore today. I'd rather do something mindless. But nothing stupid. I guess I'll get to experience the great intellectual kind of mindlessness. Yes, I quite fancy that idea.

Also, it is interesting to note that allegedly I speak different languages with very differing accents. And sometimes I change accents mid-speech. Go figure.

Anyways I will leave you with 2 slightly different Christmas songs, the first one is a bit more famous, but the other one won't let you down either. Even though it is not exactly about Christmas but rather about the wonderful snowy season we have right now.

The Darkness - Christmas Time (Don't let the bells end)


Arcade Fire - Winter for a year

The sloths are coming

I have been silent for a while. I shall keep up the good work.



But I am confident that silence will not fall. It doesn't matter if the question is asked.

"Madame, are you sure you are dying?" -James Bond
"Not dying, but giving up my life. There is a convent on the other side of the hill." -Mimi

EDIT: forgot to write a title...

Merely saying something does not make it an opinion, does it?

It's kind of weird that when I actually had time, I did not post anything. During that time I had enough time to do something else. Something more worthwhile than spreading good music and some peculiar thoughts and theories. Now that I have returned to the almost normal nearly standard full time load, I start coming back at it. Makes sense, really.

How to measure the worth of a life? If it is measurable (for instance by assessing the amounts of money paid for ransom to save lives), are some lives actually more valuable than others? In case of the ransoms, it is quite evident - the worth of the life of a hostage is directly linked to the potential size of the ransom. But if one were, to say, eliminate the monetary factor, what would a life be worth? If you had a choice between 2 people (strangers to you), one of whom you need to sentence to death, how would you choose? How could you choose? Would it simply be a standard case of flipping a coin or would it be subjective assessment to the importance of the people "for the greater good"? In the first case the people have about the equal chance of survival, which means that you as a judge become redundant. This is generally the case of diseases that sweep through human settlements, killing off random people. In the second case on person clearly has the upper edge. The main problem with this is the subjectiveness of the evaluation of value that very often tends to tilt a little too much to give the other guy even a fighting chance. Tends to kill a type of democracy - it is nothing even close to equal opportunities for everyone. however people are at power, making subjective and often enough ineffective and even harmful decisions that affect merely the whole world (if the decision is repeated for some time with different subjects). Is that any better than death by bioweapon? Technically both results can be tinkered with, ensuring the survival of the people who carry it out. The only difference is in the result. Hence there is only one question: Does man make more mistakes than he would if he were to leave it to pure chance?
Sheldon Cooper, PhD, made some research into the matter, but his system of randomness lacked "true" randomness. By any chance, it was missed by me. But he did prove that living by order of chance does indeed care for the basic necessities and quite a lot of luxuries. Well, not "proved", per se. More like "demonstrated". After all, he is a doctor for pretend. And yes, that was a hint to NPH. Inappropriate.

Basically one could take any choice and compare the human choice and the random result, but only when a life is a stake do people pay attention. I am not saying we should kill lots of people, I'm just trying to figure out what is the most efficient method for it (the method giving the "best" result) so that the survivors would have a better chance for a better life. The subjectiveness of the subject is subject to subjectiveness.





But think about it, if you were asked why you should live, as opposed to someone else, how would you answer?

Desla

In a mere few days the harder part shall be over.

Ah, autumn. The time when people start becoming more active again, which means getting in contact with come people who disappeared a long time ago.

It is also the time new problems emerge. And they do not forget the old ones.

I can only hope that all goes well. But we can't really allow that to happen.


In other news I've found good music and someone who effectively amounts to being my nemesis. A clone, but different. Frightens me quite much. Fast so viel wie Deutsch.

But I can leave with more music.

Who'd have thought that studying takes up more time in a day during holidays than during schooltime?

I woke up this mornin' with the sundown shinin' in

I found my mind in a brown paper bag, but then...

I tripped on a cloud and fell eight miles high

I tore my mind on a jagged sky

I just dropped in to see what condition my condition was in

("Just dropped in" by Kenny Rogers)

The main problem with time managagement is that You don't have full control over time.
I'm not talking about time travel or freezing time, as cool as that may sound.
I'm talking about the lack of control over one's life.
This week I had an exam, 2 classes and by the end of the week I'll have had 3 'meetings' that I HAVE to have. Add to that a deadline for 56 pages of German stuff and the fact that I was *actually* able to start on the 56 pages... last Sunday.
I very nearly would've had a third class with homework as well but luckily I accidentially missed it. True story.
And I don't have a choice or say when or where I'm supposed to be. All for the greater good.

On the plus side, working all day has mashed up my brains so it seems pretty ripe for school.

Yay.

Don't really have time to think about anything else. Well, I guess you can be worse than crazy, right?

Basta.

The Post Office is back in business!

Sometimes it is best not to doubt others and yourself. Sometimes it is better to let things go the way they are supposed to go for a while.
It may be difficult at times but it's worth it.
Let them shift first.
Refrigerator.

"Die Welt muss sich drehen, nichts kann so bleiben
ich renn durch mein leben, wie ne Lok auf zwei Beinen
Ein Hund kann nicht krähen, ein Fisch kann nicht schreien,
und ich kann nicht stehen bleiben, ich bin ein rollender Stein."

(Peter Fox - Lok Auf 2 Beinen)

Anyone know a good book in German?


##Tried to fix video, hope I succeeded.

As long as he is wearing the grey suit.

I don't get it. In most books I read, the female characters are more or less pointless. They may be to get the lead character to open up, or make him look more human with human needs. Very often they are just there to cover the 'sexual part' of a book. Rarely do you see really 'ladylike' or strong female characters. They are always damsels in distress.
This, for some reason, disturbs me.



Just since I listened to Slink (A Hymn) I've wondered about Locksley. And upon closer look I found that they have a really good sound.



They are worth listening to. Even if just on YouTube. 'Well just because!'

This is the way the world ends

It's here, it's finally here... Pi day!


When ink and pen in hands of men
Inscribe your form, bipedal "P"
They draw an altar on which
God has slaughtered all stability
No eyes could ever soak in all the places you anoint
And yet to see you all at once we only need the point
Flirting with infinity, your geometric progeny
That fit inside you oh so tight
With triangles that feel so right

3.14159265358979323846264338327950288419716939937510582097494459

Your ever-constant homily says flaw is discipline
The patron saint of imperfection frees us from our sin
And if our transcendental lift shall find a final floor
Then Man will know the death of God where wonder was before


Also heads up on the IE9 release coming at night!

Nur fliegen ist schöner

Being in 2 places at once seems to have become the standard for me. Whether it is German and Material Techology or debating and Physics, the basic idea remains the same. Give up one or lose them both. And I don't like that kind of thing.

I've had so much to share, yet no I can't think up of anything. I guess that's how memory works- you can remind it at any time exept for the time you need it.

School has started to become more interesting, some teachers have increasing supporting thinking but they underestimate the people. They encourage thinking but also show that it has little effect on your results or your life. And that is kind of a step back.
Thinking is really annoying. I don't like it.
But that is just me.

Also, IE9 is coming on Monday so 'yay'.

I need more sleep. I guess I'll have to wait for May to get it.
Hurray for Hawaii.

Slow ride. Take it easy.

First of all, Japanese are... odd.
I suggest you watch the video in that link, it is pretty bizarre to say the least.

The best time to be the first is the last

'We are not questioning god,
just those who choose to carry on his Cross.'



I must say, lately I have started listening to a lot of smooth music... which is odd, because I am not content anymore.

I've been thinking... I need a team.
A real team.
Not one that is 2 people and an empty spot.
Not one that has 2 people who I don't feel in a team with.
Not a team I don't get.
I wish it were possible.
Even plausible would do.
But a real team?
Fiction or fantasy?

Is it a lost cause?
Or is there a way?
I know I can't keep burning the candle at both ends
but sure as hell I am going to give it a go.
I am not a fan of gameplans.
I like winging it.
Yet I love it when a plan comes together.
And I hate surprises.
This is why I have few expectations
None of them great.

I don't like to be proven wrong.
I like to know what is going to happen.
I like to know the truth.
But information blocks are surrounding me,
Binding me to oblivion.
And in the end I have to ask...
Who am I and who are the others?
What is the point?

The only solution is to keep pushing through
Push, push, push
And hope to get right with you.
The only solution
Is cruise mode.

And yes, Han shot first.

Bullet in the brainpan, squish

I can help shake the feeling that we are of different worlds.

What do I want from life? How to get it? I actually cannot say for sure.
I know I want to thrive, I want to reach something.
I want to make a future.
But what will it be like?

'The future is in your hands, so make it a good one!' -Back to the Future Part III

Falling asleep is hard, waking up is even harder.
I wish things just went the way they should, no surprises, no reroutes.
Just a steady cruise, following it's way to the abyss.
Nothing complex, only simplicity at it's finest.
Just to simply live and not have a care in the world because it all comes together.
But plans never do.
'Even the best laid plansnever survive the battlefield.'

Maybe I should revert to reading 'Cryptonomicon' or 'The Art of War'...
Damn those were great books.
Books to live by.

Live long and Prosper Merimee

In Merimee's 'Carmen', her (Carmen's) main point appears to be
'Give me liberty or give me Jose... I mean death.'
Which brings in a rhyme
'Enesetapp - nõrkus või tugevus
või loogiline tulemus?'
'Suicide - flaw or merit
or logical result?'
I know, it doesn't quite rhyme in English as it came out in Estonian. Blame the translator.

Time is so scarce there is nearly no time to rest. My only shot at it is during the weekend as the only stuff next week are as simple as splinters. Except for the one thing I can't wing: German.
I've tried, it's no good.

And yet I write this blog, as if I had nothing better to do... as a matter of fact I am waiting for someone to teach Biology to and learn through teaching. It has proven to be a viable option and it does work.

The fumes are running out. Rogue Wave helps a lot.

Fate seemed to be playing a series of extraordinarily unamusing jokes. - George Orwell

"Life will go on as it has always gone on — that is, badly."- Benjamin the Donkey from George Orwell's 'Animal Farm'

Now that we've grown up together

They're afraid of what they see
That's the price that we all pay
Our valued destiny comes to nothing
I can't tell you where we're going
I guess there's just no way of knowing

Boys speak in rhythm and girls just lie
doo doo doo doo
doo doo doo doo
Tell me how you feel, come out of the dark
Then we can head back home and I'll know where to start

-'Foreign language' by Anberlin

The Orwell theme in this post is because of the new subheading of the blog.

Every change brings problems. What defines us is how we deal with those problems.

This song just goes perfectly with what I feel at the present. Downloadable.

A man cannot do everything, there have to be choices. Choices can be good or bad, they can be compromising or infallible. A choice can hurt or heal someone. We never know what kind of choice we make until we have made it and see the consequences. And then we have an another choice, how to deal with those consequences.

'Actions have consequences. Some people learn the hard way.' -HT

The pace is taking it's toll. I'm running on fumes already.

'Guns and ducktape, when do we go?'

For biology purposes, I recommend music. It's catchy enough to be easy to be memorized.

Anyways, sleep deprivation does not bode well for my neural cortex. I feel like a corpse.

'He attacked everything in life with a mix of extraordinary genius and naive incompetence, and it was often difficult to tell which was which.' -Douglas Adams

You fog things up. You always have.

[via Failbook via GAS]

'Better than making an enemy look disloyal is making him look insane. It takes some doing but if you pull it off, it is more devastating than a bullet.' -BN

Best opinion essay topic I've heard in a long time: 'Should Justin Bieber be executed?'

'Sometimes you dance with the Devil.'

Geek jokes are fun. Especially after I tried convincing  a couple dozens of people to think that all young people are geeks and are turning more stooped because of it.

I know it is theoretically impossible to understand, but this works perfectly to those who do.

Complaining works

I followed the footprints

Around in the snow

I ended up doing circles and came back home

Where I started to find that everyone was a sign

And all that mattered was that this *flaming* fire's mine

Sometimes you kinda have to die

If you're ever gonna find your way back to where your life is

Life is quite interesting. Sometimes you search and try to find something... eventually realizing you are just fooling yourself. Other times it smacks you in the face from where you don't see it coming. By process of misevaluating priorities one can make huge mistakes, leading to perfect endings for the one, but causing destruction to everyone around.
I'm slowly beginning to believe in predestination.

People continue to amaze me. Either someone comes up with really impressive poetry, overachieves oneself or opens up at the least expected moment. I understand them completely.

Something's wrong

So I decided to start with music. It's just something I've just recently discovered. They are quite good with a well-developed mediocre style (not exactly awesome, but not exactly unawesome either)
I mainly like this song for the first lines that describe the seasons but also because it talks about abnormal people like me.

We are liars like a summer day.


Like the spring, we are such fools.

Like fall, we are false prophets.

And like winter, we are cruel.


However would it really be me if I did not pick a song that really gets in my head? No. It has to stay haunting, it has to become addicting, it has to be... something simple, yet elegant. It has to be Rogue Wave or Cake. I would otherwise take Dime by Cake, but I've advertised it so much already... so Rogue it is.



I promise to return to the normal mindlessness soon. Just not yet, feeling too down down down down.

I've never wanted for the winter to end sooner

Well, the latest news claim that Firefox is more popular in Europe than IE. Fun, right?
The difference is a lot smaller that in some other places.

English has turned to be more fun and gives a lot more opportunities than previously thought.